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Wednesday, 14 December 2016

Help me

Hi!


Again, stranger from another computer screen. 


I've been thinking a lot lately. You know when you're in the car and you're listening to music with earphones plug in ur ears. Somehow, those songs you used to listen when you're a kid once..now makes all sense. Girls will cry all day, all night ..thinking what made things complicated. I know. It's so stupid but it's really not until you..face it..yourself. Somehow..our hearts aren't solid..it's fragile. but the fragile hearts are the best at faking everything.


I get really insecure when I saw pretty girls online. It's even worse when you met them in real life. Flawless skin,pretty face,perfect smile, nice figure.. and the list goes on and on ..but for me..I can finally accept all of my flaws. I seriously can't even stand when people talk about how bad my skin is or how skinny I looked. It's annoying. I mean, I looked at the mirror everyday everytime. Yes people I do have a mirror. But you know, people will point at your flaws and how bad it looks. I am not lazy. I'm just getting through a phase where all people exprience acne problems. 



Sometimes,I regret knowing people that I really don't wanna know. For some reasons..now I know how the world works now. They give you all they can ...treat you like you've never been treat before.. and once they got you..puff!!..their gone..All "hellos" has their "goodbyes". People think only the heart that has emotions but truth is..even the brain has emotion too( Doctors Crush ). Without it..how can our hearts be able to feel the emotions?



Pretty random right? Honestly, I just turn on the laptop and start typing what's going on in my head. I'm sorry if this is boring for you. Not-so-interesting I must say. But yea, Sometimes it's best to express yourself. Even if it hurts. Truth hurts too.



Bye.


Tuesday, 13 December 2016

Myself

Hi! There stranger from another screen computer.


My name is Nurshazunabilah Bt. Zainal. I am 17 years old. I was born on 28 oct 1999. I have 4 siblings I am the third child. My friends call me nabilah or shazu( most of the time is shazu). I have a cat named, Blacky. I am a scorpio. I love long walks on the beach. I have friends that I can trust. Sometimes we are just really far away because I moved a lot. I was born at Perak but was raised in Sabah . But after many years, I finally stayed at my hometown, Negeri Sembilan. 

I love listening to music and singing. Even though I suck at singing. I have my best friend, Zati. She's really good at singing. It's the first time since I met someone sings really good. I enjoy writing but somehow I stopped because I'm too lazy even tho words are spinning in my mind. I love drawing . If I'm in the mood to draw, I'll draw really good. But If my mood is in a mess, my drawing will be a mess too. 

I like the smell of the rain. It just feel right. I love watching the rain falls dripping on the window car. I like teddy bears and cute things . I am really sensetive but most of the time I'm okay . I used to cry when my older brother tease me( actually still do). I love my nephew and I miss him a lot. I really want to learn to play the piano. I love wearing sweaters. It makes me feel comfortable. I like wearing it all day. I wish the weather will always be this cold. I never felt what's snow feels like. I've been to a haunted house at Sunway Lagoon theme park and it was scary as hell. 

I like watching horror movies with my sister in law. My favorite food is Roti nan. I like to drink milo ais. I like spending time with my family and friends. 

I guess that's it. 

Weird

Honestly, I don't even know what to write since it has been years (maybe) I stop posting stuff on my blog.  I used to have like tons novel stories on my blog. But I deleted them all. I don't know why. Probably because it was all too cringy for me. But the stories that my friend,Aina made are really good tho. She's good at writing and I miss her a lot. Ever since I moved to another place, I'm starting to miss all of my friends that know me. It's hard to keep in touch with them because I'm really lazy to call them or text them(lol i know). But I still remember them. I can't ever forget them. Anyway, since I have finished my SPM, I've decided to write something at least to fill up my time. I didn't get a job nor even start taking my license so why not start writing again. 

I'm actually bad at writing stuff. Seriously, I'm worst but I'll try my best. I like poetry now. Someone introduce it to me and I think it's really sweet and cool. Some how, I really miss how we used to write short poems to each other. But you know, time changes..so do people.. I guess. I love how I stay here where I used too. Usually I get really scared when it comes to moving but I end up making friends anyway. I hate it when I'm all alone but sometimes it's just the best escape you can do to avoid people. I always did that when I'm in school. How I try really hard not to get close to people. It's not that I don't want to be friends but It's just cause I want it to. But I'm grateful to have such lovely friends at school. And hope we'll stay as friends or more like a family forever.

Again. I stop tpying because I don't know what else to write. I used to have like tons of ideas to write after SPM guess those Ideas won't come out. Weird. I'm just gonna write whatever I  feel or maybe share some exprience. 


Bye.